Reflexos da Música XV

I don't know why... But I'm afraid...

"Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid"

Because of you by Kelly Clarkson

[Sometimes... ]

[Sometimes... ]
... I hate myself...

[Sometimes... ]
... I hate those girls...
... I hate the way they smile at you, pretending that you don't have a girlfriend...
... I hate the way they say bad things about us and about me in my backs...

[Sometimes... ]
... I want you close to me, holding me tight...
... I wanna be alone, surrounded by my own darkness...

[Sometimes... ]
... I miss you dad...
... I want you far away from me...

[Sometimes... ]
... I want break something...
... I cry because I broke the wrong thing...

[Sometimes... ]
... I look back and think that they deserve all the things I did
... I look back and I regret everything...

[Sometimes... ]
... I kick the world right in the ass...
... The world kick me back away to my corner...

[Sometimes... ]
... I wanna scream...
... I wanna break...
... I wanna leave...
... I wanna live...
... I wanna feel the fresh air...

[Sometimes... ]
... I do not deserve to be grounded...
... I deserve to be kicked out...

[Sometimes... ]
... I dream with you...
... I remember you...
... I miss you...
... I'm scared of you...
... I wish you weren't dead...
... I think in how you hurt me... But even so I wish you weren't dead...
... I think of you...

[Sometimes... ]
... I'm jealous...
... I can't get along with her...
... I remember when she was my best friend and how she is now falling for you...
... I call her a bitch and I mean it...
... I wish she was far away...
... I wish you were all mine...
... I make evil stories in my head that I know they'll never happen in real life...
... I HATE THOSE BITCHES!

[Sometimes... ]
... I realize I shouldn't have trusted in you...
... I think it all was a lie...
... I think you were pretending all the time...
... I wish you're okay... I wish you don't have any problem with the path you chased...

[Sometimes... ]
... I just want to disappear...
... I don't know what to say...
... I just don't know what to think...
... I feel like I'm with my hands and my feet chained...
... I feel like a child...
... I can be your sweet dream...
... I can be your living hell...

That's up to you ...

Die!

Just die! Get out of my life at once! It's frustrating! It's torturing! And the saddest part is that you know! [or perhaps you don't <.<]You know you're breaking my heart! You're making me fall apart... And you know it... It's funny... You know everything! You know how much I love you, you know how important you are, you know how much I care, you know how much I suffer...

YOU MAKE ME WANNA DIE! EVERYTIME I LOOK INSIDE YOUR EYES... MAKE ME WANNA DIE!

I just can't take it much longer!
You say you love me... You know what? I don't believe you 'cuz you act like you don't and it hurts... Have you ever figured out that I might be really in love with you? Had you even realize that? It's not that hard for god sakes! I just don't know what to do... I've run out of ideas... You're alwats jealous of my friends... I don't understand you! "I got a lot to say to you! Yeah I got a lot to say... I noticed you're eyes are always glued to me, keeping them here and it makes no sense at all! (...) Crush... Crush... Crush, Crush, Crush! Nothing compares to a quiet evening alone. Just the one, two I was just counting on. That never happen, I guess I'm dreaming again... Let's be more than... THIS!"

I'd rather waste my life pretending than have to forget you for one hole minute...

I love you...
I hate you...

JUST DIE! Why don't you come up to me and say "I love you"? Why?! Am I asking to much? It's nothing more... I would be so happy... if you come talk to me and surprised me with a kiss (I love surprises you know)... If you love me why don't you say that right in front of me?! I love you and if you love me, like you say, why aren't we together?
But I guess I'm dreaming again... I'm always dreaming and perhaps that's why nothing happens... 'Cuz it's all just a dream... Or a nightmare...