Die!

Just die! Get out of my life at once! It's frustrating! It's torturing! And the saddest part is that you know! [or perhaps you don't <.<]You know you're breaking my heart! You're making me fall apart... And you know it... It's funny... You know everything! You know how much I love you, you know how important you are, you know how much I care, you know how much I suffer...

YOU MAKE ME WANNA DIE! EVERYTIME I LOOK INSIDE YOUR EYES... MAKE ME WANNA DIE!

I just can't take it much longer!
You say you love me... You know what? I don't believe you 'cuz you act like you don't and it hurts... Have you ever figured out that I might be really in love with you? Had you even realize that? It's not that hard for god sakes! I just don't know what to do... I've run out of ideas... You're alwats jealous of my friends... I don't understand you! "I got a lot to say to you! Yeah I got a lot to say... I noticed you're eyes are always glued to me, keeping them here and it makes no sense at all! (...) Crush... Crush... Crush, Crush, Crush! Nothing compares to a quiet evening alone. Just the one, two I was just counting on. That never happen, I guess I'm dreaming again... Let's be more than... THIS!"

I'd rather waste my life pretending than have to forget you for one hole minute...

I love you...
I hate you...

JUST DIE! Why don't you come up to me and say "I love you"? Why?! Am I asking to much? It's nothing more... I would be so happy... if you come talk to me and surprised me with a kiss (I love surprises you know)... If you love me why don't you say that right in front of me?! I love you and if you love me, like you say, why aren't we together?
But I guess I'm dreaming again... I'm always dreaming and perhaps that's why nothing happens... 'Cuz it's all just a dream... Or a nightmare...

Do i?

It's raining outside...
The sky is crying and the moon is screaming!

*Why do humans hurt each other?*

*Wouldn't it be easy if we all love?*

When we suffer in silent it's always harder to control ourselves...
In the middle of all the black light of my heart there's a little white spot...
It's like the sun... kind indeed warm!And it makes feel good... Very good!
Like all my pain and my broken dreams are taked away!
And then I feel it... Running trought my veins! As water and like poison!
The much we take, the much we die for it... Poison is make from how much we take from something...
That's why LOVE is POISON! We want more, always more and in the end... It KILL us! Without any sense of mercy...

~Then I fall asleep~

I feel your kiss... your scent... your touch... I feel you with me...
Like you're actually by my side... But what a shame! It's a dream... Only a dream...
I dont' want to dream anymore! Because our dreams are mirros from what we can't have...
And I want you... So I don't want to dream with you!
I want to feel you for real... I want to kiss you, to hug you...
It feels cold here...

~My heart turns Stone cold~

Could you embrace me?
Could you warm my heart?Would you tell sweet things at my ear?
Would you whisper "I love you" to me?
Would it be true? Or just another dream?
Say it... it's true that you'll do everything I ask you?
...Then kill me...

~I stabb myself~

Last words... I LOVE YOU... Do I?