I need a hug...

I need a hug... don't ask me why... just hug me...
This is what I think... The way I feel... JUST HUG ME DAMN IT!
I'm with twirl of feeling inside me... I just wanna scream, kick something, break something...
I was the whole month asking myself why didn't he answer to my messages... And yesterday I knew it... Since 2nd October... It was devastating! I felt so bad... And I'm still that way... Sometimes people are at the wrong place in the wrong hour with the wrong purpose...

And what I hate the most is when people try to help when saying "I know what your feeling, believe me... It happened to me..." It's just annoying! Like my mother did today... IT'S MY PROBLEMS! DON'T GIVE EXAMPLES OF YOUR OWN PROBLEMS DAMN IT! It's like when someone say I can count on her and then when I start talking about what happened she start talking about her problems like ... "Dude... we're talking about me... Can you give at least 1 minute of your attention?" I don't ask much...

And now I just want a hug... I wan't your hug... Because I lost a friend that was very close to me... I could even say that he was my best friend... And now...
Just hug me :x I'm not o-fucking-kay....

R.I.P. Johnny D... I love you...